52 Weeks of Color :: Week 10

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So, last week was awesome. And scary. And uncomfortable. Slightly insane, with a dash of euphoria.

I had approximately three major brainstorms that knocked me right on my ass. (Apologies if the word “ass” is offensive to you, but the force with which I was knocked over dictates I use it. That’s how hard it hit me.)

I spent more time networking and offering up support than I think I did all of last year. (Which is sad, and something I plan on doing much differently this year.)

I felt a rush of excitement so powerful, I had to sit down and just embrace it for a few minutes.

And I did some hardcore self-reflecting. Major, in depth, shying away, pulled right out of my comfort zone kind of reflecting. There were tearful moments. There was a whole lot of insecurity. But there were fabulous moments of clarity, too, that made everything worth it.

See, I signed up to do Marie Forelo’s B-School. It was a big investment in myself, and not one I made lightly, but all the awesome-ness I’ve had since signing up is proof to myself that I made the right choice. I made the right move for me.

Oh, and all that happened happened before today, which was the official first day of class.

I’m pushing myself pretty hard right now, right up and through the boundaries of my comfort zone. As terrifying and uncomfortable as it is, it’s also really brilliant, too. Changes are going to be happening soon, and they’re going to be fantastic. My thinking, my motivation, and my focus is shifting. I hope you all will make that transition with me, as soon as I can get a few things settled first.

In other news, the ebook is alllmooost ready. Just a few more details, and it’ll be good to go. I’m releasing it to my mailing list first, so if you want the jump, come join the list.

So, that’s what I’m working on. What are you working on?

 

52 Weeks of Color :: Week 9

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Two things happened last week that lifted my spirits right up, and I have to tell you about it.

The first I already mentioned (but I’m so giddy about it, I have to share it again). I was inspired in a big way to write a new book, and have already made great strides towards finishing it. Feeling the creative fires burn after what feels like forever is amazing.

The second was a meaningful email exchange with my buddy Dave that directly led to an Aha! moment. The realization I had wasn’t a comfortable one, but it was a pretty powerful one. And it was this:

I don’t know when it happened, but I’ve let fear seep into every part of my mind and DICTATE MY ACTIONS.

Holy. Crap.

At first, I didn’t want to admit that, not to myself, not to Dave, not to anyone. How uncomfortable, and how embarrassing. Except, was it really? Or was that also the fear talking?

Pretty certain it was fear talking, I bit down and pulled the trigger on a decision that I was obsessing over for days. A decision to invest in myself for a change. Because the alternative, to wait another year and try to go it alone, is something I’ve been doing with little success. I’m ready for a new approach.

It seems like such an obvious thing, investing in yourself. Lots of people do it in small ways all the time – a feel-good manicure, a good meal, a good bottle of wine, that new book that’s been on the to-read list. Some do it in big ways – going back to school, taking a long-wanted vacation, hiring a pro to tackle a website, applying for that dream job. I’ve done both, but not recently.

What I really didn’t know when I started my creative business was how easy it’d be to push my wants, my feelings, my entire self to the side for “the sake of the business.” It was so easy to do, it happened pretty early on, and was a horrible habit to start because it’s a habit that’s horribly difficult to break. I weighed any purchase, big or small, against my job. If I get this personal thing now, I won’t be able to do that business thing later, kind of thing. And any time I did something for myself, I felt a wash of guilt.

What I lost sight of is that I am the driving factor in my business. when I invest in myself, I invest in the business.

I’m a Libra through and through, so I’m constantly seeking balance. I’m not always successful at it, but balance is a life passion for me. I can’t not seek it. I don’t know how to do that.

So, being in a state of flux for the last few months, with no idea how to rebalance my life, has left me distressed in a soul deep way that I couldn’t explain to anyone in detail. Either people got it right away, or they didn’t, and I didn’t have the words to express myself either way – I was that lost.

But after a reminder that hey, I am worth investing in, and a plan of action to strengthen and learn and grow, I’m finally feeling better. Not perfect, still a little fragile, but better.

At the start of the year, I was convinced positive changes were coming. But after a shaky start, my confidence didn’t just falter, it disappeared completely. Even if this decision to invest in myself doesn’t work out how I hope it will, it’s already been worth it to feel that glimmer of self-confidence again.

Know what I mean?

 

 

52 Weeks of Color :: Week 8

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Tell me this doesn’t look like colors you’d find in an English garden.

I was so excited to have beautiful, semi-warm, bright sunny weather last week while my niece and nephew were in town. Not just for me, because I’m done with winter, but for them, too, since they live in New York and have had it harder than me this year with all the snow. It made everything we wanted to do so much easier, and we all went out without jackets for the first time since October, it feels like.

The weather was awesome, and having them here was really fun. I miss their beautiful faces so much.

The nice weather also inspired some decisions on my part. Just seeing blue skies and sunshine instead of gray clouds has been amazing in lifting my spirits. And since I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflection lately – figuring out what’s working, what needs improvement, and what I want to put out into the world – there were moments of clarity last week, too.

So, two big pieces of news to share:

The first is that my calendars, planners, and mini classes will be retired at the end of March.

If you like them and wanted one, grab it now. Those who have purchased access to a mini class will still have access past March 31st, but signing up for those classes will be closed after that time.

 

The second is that I’m working on a new color theory-based book.

It’s still in its infancy, so I don’t have a launch date yet. But I can tell you it’s going to be very visual, with lots of color swatches and palettes, and very focused on a specific idea I talked about in Understanding Color. As of right now, it’ll be just a digital book, versus a printed one, and my mailing list will get dibs on pre-orders, which I plan on opening up very soon.

 

As sad as changes can be, I’m excited about new ideas. I’ve been in a creative drought for quite some time, so feeling this excitement is invigorating. I’m looking forward to sharing this new book with you, so I better get back to it!

How have you been? What are you working on?

 

52 Weeks of Color :: Week 7

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I’ve got two not-so-little ones (when did they get so big??) in town that are demanding attention from Auntie Brandi, so this is just a quick run by posting. Have a great Monday!

 

Valentine Colors

valentine palette 1 valentine palette 2 valentine palette 3 valentine palette 4 valentine palette 5

Truth be told, I was never one for traditional Valentine colors. I’m pretty sure it was the pink that held me back; it never really seemed to mesh with red. So, I challenged myself to find shades of red and pink that appealed to me (along with others), and I’m pretty happy with the results. It’s a toss up between #3 and #4 as far as favorites go.

Happy Valentine’s Day a day early!

 

P.S. I’ll be updating the blog here over the next few days. If things look wonky, or you get a maintenance page, hang tight.