Last Friday morning, I was sitting on my couch, watching the morning news, eating cereal, when I noticed this strange orange glow coming from behind me. I turned and looked over my shoulder, and saw a truly stunning sunrise out my window. The photo doesn’t do it justice; it was that one single moment that happens with sunrises and sunsets, where the color is so intense and special that you’re not entirely sure it’s real. If I hadn’t seen it with my own eyes, I would have wondered if it was an altered photograph.
As I ran to grab my camera, I realized that I haven’t seen a sunrise that special in a while, and if I had been anywhere else in my house that morning, I would have missed it.
And I couldn’t help wondering what else I’ve missed.
I’m not always “in the moment” or “present”. Some days I’m tired. Sometimes I’m grumpy and impatient. Some days, my mind calls in sick and wanders about. When I’m working, either on a project or on an idea, I’m completely oblivious to the world around me. Sometimes, instead of focusing on the people I’m with, I’m plotting a new project. I know this about myself, and it’s not something that I particularly like. Is it too early to make a resolution? Because right now, I want to make “being present” a personal goal.
That disconnected feeling has been growing over the last month. That’s why I wanted to touch base last week and get to know what you like and respond to here on my blog. Have I missed something with you all? Have I missed clues about what people are responding to, too wrapped up in my own thoughts? Have I been rushing to get a message out, without stopping to think if it’s needed or wanted? Totally possible on all counts. Even if it hadn’t been a 52 Weeks blog prompt, it was time for a check-in to be done (again with the kismet!).
Why does it matter to me? Because this is how I connect with you. Blogs are the kind of platform that doesn’t require short answers. I don’t have to fit myself into 140 characters or short blurbs or item descriptions; I can say as much as I want without limiting myself here. Here, I have the freedom to be personal and personable without restriction, and I want that connection to be sound. If I want to have a dialogue here, I have to do my part and be receptive to what you’re saying.
I found your survey responses fabulous and curious and insightful. Originally, I thought I’d share the general results, till I realized that it’s probably only fascinating to me (I’m kinda geeky like that). So, I’ll simply say that there were a few surprises, and lots of things to think over. You’ve given me totally usable and specific feedback, which is fantastic. There’s absolutely no way to make everyone happy, so I’m not going to stress about it; regular readers are pretty content, and the occasional reader seems satisfied, too. Can’t ask for more than that.
Thanks to your feedback, I’ve got a few ideas of what to tweak, directions to focus attention on. I’m doing my best to listen, and I’m not low on opinions or ideas, so if you’ve got a burning question, you only have to ask. I think a little change will be good, so thanks for coming along for the ride.
I’d love to know – anybody else feel a little disconnected? Anybody have problems not being present, too?